So I'm going to ASU. Mixed feelings. I don't know what is in store for me in these next four years. I'm glad to stay home with my family. That was my biggest unhappiness when I decided I wanted to go to BYU. Now I feel like my life is stuck in a rut and I've got no where to grow. That last word was a type-o but it makes sense so I'll keep it. College isn't growing up unless you're moving out. Not to mention all of my friends are leaving here. A bonus is that I can put purple in my hair without the BYU police fining me. What is left for me in Arizona to do? Attend institute? Work? Study? Boring. No friends, no people, I'll become a hermit and envy my brother and sister's exciting high school atmosphere. It's too hot here. I'm sure there are some more positives about going to ASU but I'm pretty sure I won't discover those until I actually get there. I'm not really sure what I want, BYU seemed like an adventure and had snow and green grass and perfect summers. It's where all the best go. No Mormon dorm life for me. No cool firesides with general authorities. No Creamery, no trees, no clock tower that chimes hymns. We have partiers, we have concerts, we have scary mill ave, cactuses (yeah i just said cactuses) and girls who show up to class in bikinis. Wanna throw up? I do. Um, I'm really ungrateful and pessimistic. I feel like I'm upset and want to throw a chair through a nice glass window. Something better is waiting for me, I know it, but dag gummit I'm really tired right now and want some enjoyment. And writing this is not helping so I think I'll leave.
Grateful statement: Macey's home and I love her.
TTYSSNTIDTWAP
talk to you sometime soon next time i decide to write a post.
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