SYAD EROM RUOF

If you read backwards you know that says FOUR MORE DAYS. ASRTOIAW EKJSFDLSJD!
I can't scream enough on here to express the craziness that is raging around inside of me. So instead I'm gonna put some pictures up. Pictures are always fun, right?

These are two of my greatershist friends and we are at our senior prom.
GO VALLEY G for getting prom queen. Boom bam.

This is a picture I painted. It's decent.

This is one of my favorite faces of all time. Haha I wonder if he'd kill me if he knew I was putting these pictures up...

Beautiful, stormy drive up to David and Lisa's cabin. HECK YES.

Maybe I put this picture up before. But I love it.

And so thats that. See how he weedles his way into my blog post even though I try and just put pictures up? Weird. Is weedles even a word?

Lemons in my Life

This should be easy, right? Just writing down how I'm feeling and blahblahblah? A berjillion things are just stacking up right now and I feel like I can't take care of any of them. I need to go to work but I just won't. I need to get stuff figured out for this next semester but I don't want to. I need to make a hat but I'm spending all my time with Weston. Favorite decision ever. Except for not, and here's why:
The more I'm with him, the more I spend every stinkin' possible moment with him, the more my stomach's like, "agghhhhhhh" the more my brain screams WAIT WHAT ARE YOU DOING!? and here's why:
He goes back up to Utah next Saturday/Sunday/Monday. Happy birthday to me. Not. and you know what that means?
Two more weeks until school starts back up, and either I'll see him during those two weeks (probably not, its not worth it/probably won't work out/I'm tired) or I'll see him during Spring Break (March).
And if not:
I won't see him until the end of April, which is four months away, or if he decides to stay for the spring I won't see him until the middle of June. 6 months.
Best case scenario: see him in beginning of January, in March, in April.
Worst case scenario: don't see him until the middle of June.
Neither of these actually sound/feel/seem appealing. and here's why:
I hate being here without him. And then as soon as I get used to it, he shows back up and becomes a real and actual part of my life again and leaves. If I don't get to have him around and nothing is going to work out between us I'd rather just punch this relationship in the gut and walk away. It's no fun living like this. It's no fun going about my days without him, building my world without him, and then he shows up again and we work so well together and we laugh and sing and dance and then it's BOOM.
GO BACK TO SCHOOL. LIVE YOUR MEDIOCRE LIFE. WATCH AS EVERYONE AROUND YOU GETS TO GROW AND MOVE ON TO THINGS WHILE YOU SIT IN A CORNER AND WAIT FOR A GUY WHO IS AT BYU AND WILL ALWAYS BE AT BYU AND YOU'RE POOR SO YOU STAY AT ASU WHICH IS NOT BYU AND TRY TO FIGURE OUT WHAT YOU'RE DOING AT ASU IN THE FIRST PLACE.
This is a rant and I'm sorry. It's been a rough night.
When all is said and done, though, well. I dunno. I don't know if it's all worth it in the end. Right now it feels like it's not and it won't get any better. But it's also 2 AM and no one thinks rationally at this time.
One more week to figure this out.
Tune in next time for SOAP OPERAS WITH LYNZI
-to be continued- (sorry)

Follow Me on Twitter

Yeah, I did it. I created a Twitter account. And I realized that Twitter is the best part of Facebook: Status Updates. More precisely, clever status updates. So there I am. I always thought Twitter was the dumbest thing in the world. So I'm as surprised as you are that I have one. But my best friend Ashley and I, we're just going to follow each other on Twitter. Update stuff just so the other one can see it.
TOO MUCH FUN! (click the link to see my profile page. YAY!)

ps- MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE! May all your  dreams (the reasonable ones, at least) come true.

"Next Blog>>"

I just discovered this button that shoots you to another person's blog. JUST SOME RANDOM PERSON'S BLOG!! It was the weirdest thing. I clicked it, and it took me to a blog where the last post was a picture of an ultrasound. Next. List of things this lady did that entire day. Listed hourly. They were mom things. Next. A blog named Cookies for Breakfast. Again about a mom. WHERE ARE ALL THE COOL BLOGGERS THAT DON'T BLOG ABOUT MOM THINGS!>?! on facebook, that's where. Speaking of which, I am still offa that thing. I dunno, I feel like I need to get back on so I can have all my pictures and stuff. I miss those pictures. But I feel like I'd be letting the whole world down if I got back on.
Oh and another thing.
RANDOM SAUCE- I promised myself I'd never do this, but lookit this guy.

See how I'm hugging him? That's how much I like him. I always thought I wouldn't blog about guys because then we'd just break up and then it'd be all awkward that I had posted something about him...

Kinda the same *ehhh* feeling about changing a relationship status on the big FB. It's easier to just be all like... nonchalant about it. However.

whatintheworldilovethewaywearetogether. I love spending time with him. But guess what he's at BYU and I am definitely not there. SO.

What.

Happens.

Now.

Well I dunno. But sometimes I feel like it's way too hard and I can't deal with the crazy of the whole thing and then sometimes I just embrace it and love it and really embrace and love every second I get with him.

What's really funny, though, is that he might be all like, "why did you blog about me?" But he'll never see this so no worries. :)

For once I didn't open my eyes all the way and he did.

but I love this crazy guy.

YAY.

Good Morning. Because it is Still Morning.

So it turns out eating a doughnut and a BBQ chicken sandwich at 2 in the morning leaves your esophagus burning when you wake up.
Whatever, because it was worth it. So weird that I had to eat before I could fall asleep.
And so weird that BBQ sandwiches burn your throat.
All that aside, I'm glad that after a yucky night I can wake up and feel decent, (again, minus the burning)

WHAT IS SOsOSoSOSOSO cool, though, is that I woke up and looked out my window, and it looked like this:

Duh Duh Duh DUH!!! CLOUDY WITH A CHANCE OF RAIN!!!!!

If that's not happiness in it's truest form, I dunno what is. What a blessing! and maybe it won't be EIGHTY STINKIN DEGREES today. IT'S DECEMBER!

but I'll stop complaining. Because it's CLOUDY WITH A CHANCE OF RAIN!!!!

Booyes.

INSOMN-MANIAC

Coming at you live from 1:24 AM.
What in the world. So I did everything that is needed in my nightly routine. Face washed, teeth brushed, scriptures read, prayers said. Put my retainers in. And jumped into bed, covered up my head, because Santa Claus comes... in 8 days. Sometimes when I can't fall asleep at night I move around until I'm comfortable. So I moved around. Still uncomfortable. Sometimes when I'm uncomfortable I take my retainers out. Took them out. Still RESTLESS!
TWO BIGGEST PET PEEVES:
ONE: Meet my pet peeve, broken clock

PET PEEVE TWO:

meet my not being able to fall asleep pet peeve.

 

That's pretty much me with dark hair and creepy eyes.

(note the clock on the wall appears to be working) 

So what I did after laying there for too too long was

Got up, went downstairs.... and ate one of these bad boys. 

 

I'm not a late night snacker. So we know something's wrong here. Nor am I a late night blogger. Double wrong. We should do something about this. But looking at this doughnut is making me hungry. I think I'll have another.

Agh.